Panama

So I guess I'm going to Panama this summer...

God really amazes me. I really do believe that God will use this experience to not only use me as a blessing to the Panamanians, but also as a way to increase my faith in Him and sort of prepare me for college. I'm not trying to sound selfish, but I think that part of the reason God is guiding me to Panama is so that I can grow a lot in some aspects of my life--in parts that I didn't even realize needed much help.

Even though it's only been a few days since I've committed to going, God has already begun teaching me SO many thing, both practically and spiritually. One huge thing is money: I never really realized how much my parents have supported me, and how much money I tend to spend. This is sort of the first time I have ever really been independent of my parent's financial support and completely dependent on God's providence. That alone has made me re-evaluate how I spend my money on basic things, such as food, clothing, and going to events. I never really realized how much I needed to change in the ways I manage my money, because my parents have always been so supportive of everything I do, regardless of the fee. It's been a huge blessing, but now it's time that I start using what I have wisely.

A few days ago, I realized how lacking I can be in faith partly because I've never had a complete dependence on God. My life has been so good: I've always had the food, the money, the clothes, the education, the supplies, pretty much handed to me. But now, I have no idea how many people are really willing to support me financially, or if I will even be able to raise enough money. In addition, I just found out that I need to have my plane ticket money ($870) a lottt sooner than I thought, so I really do need to depend on God for this one. Strangely, I'm peaceful about the financial situation and I know that God does provide. I am amazed more each day by how much God provides me with the support I need both spiritually and financially.

And so, this is basically what has been happening in my life for the past few days. I'm excited to see what God will continue to do in the future. Regardless of what happens, I know that He is faithful, and He is good.

Praise Jesus!