A Fool for Jesus?

In a recent conversations with two of my friends regarding the balance of a "spiritual life" and an "ordinary life," one said to me:

"I really like the balance that you have between your spiritual and outside life. You're a good Christian, but you still have friends. I think some people think that you have to go 'all in' about your faith, but I think you have to have a balance."

I know my friend meant this to be a compliment and not offensive in any way, but I was actually pretty saddened by this comment. I can't provide much detail into the context of our conversation because it's private and doesn't concern you or me, but I don't believe that my life should be compartmentalized into a "spiritual" one and an "ordinary" one. Granted, I think my friend was trying to say that I maintain my morals as a Christian without repelling all of my non-Christian friends and causing me to lose most of my non-believing friends. However, I actually thought the exact opposite: the whole point of Christianity is to go "all in" with your life in humble surrender to Christ; it should be a lifestyle that transcends all other boundaries and is evident to those around you, especially the nonbelievers. Yes, we should act with discernment and wisdom in dealing with non-believers, and becoming ostracized by classmates probably isn't the best thing to do. But if truly living in boldness and faith by the love of Christ meant losing a few friends and tarnishing my reputation, isn't it all worth it? Isn't that what Matthew meant by storing up treasures in heaven in Matt 6:19-34? And to be honest, I have been valuing my social status and reputation among both Christians and non-Christians too much. It's depressing to see how much I've treasured being accepting into the social norm, when it's so explicitly stated in the Bible that we are to become fools for Christ. Most people view suffering as a bad thing, but didn't Paul call all professing Christians to "join with [him] in suffereing for the gospel, by the power of God, who has saved us and called us to a holy life" (2 Tim 1:8)? Looking back, I have sacrificed the gospel for the sake of my reputation, instead of the other way around. I have not suffered for the gospel, and I have failed to fully live in faith. I have become so afraid of "awkwardness" and being condemned by both Christians and non-Christians alike that my faith has been compromised. It's time that I start decreasing my own agenda and increasing His (John 3:30). I pray that God will rid me of this fear of man and desire to be loved, and that I will live selflessly and boldly for His sake. It's time that I became a fool for Christ.