NOTES: Hear me, LORD, my plea is just;
listen to my cry.
Hear my prayer—
it does not rise from deceitful lips.
2 Let my vindication come from you;
may your eyes see what is right.
Hear my prayer—
it does not rise from deceitful lips.
2 Let my vindication come from you;
may your eyes see what is right.
3 Though you probe my heart,
though you examine me at night and test me,
you will find that I have planned no evil;
my mouth has not transgressed.
4 Though people tried to bribe me,
I have kept myself from the ways of the violent
through what your lips have commanded.
5 My steps have held to your paths;
my feet have not stumbled.
though you examine me at night and test me,
you will find that I have planned no evil;
my mouth has not transgressed.
4 Though people tried to bribe me,
I have kept myself from the ways of the violent
through what your lips have commanded.
5 My steps have held to your paths;
my feet have not stumbled.
6 I call on you, my God, for you will answer me;
turn your ear to me and hear my prayer.
7 Show me the wonders of your great love,
you who save by your right hand
those who take refuge in you from their foes.
8 Keep me as the apple of your eye;
hide me in the shadow of your wings
9 from the wicked who are out to destroy me,
from my mortal enemies who surround me.
turn your ear to me and hear my prayer.
7 Show me the wonders of your great love,
you who save by your right hand
those who take refuge in you from their foes.
8 Keep me as the apple of your eye;
hide me in the shadow of your wings
9 from the wicked who are out to destroy me,
from my mortal enemies who surround me.
10 They close up their callous hearts,
and their mouths speak with arrogance.
11 They have tracked me down, they now surround me,
with eyes alert, to throw me to the ground.
12 They are like a lion hungry for prey,
like a fierce lion crouching in cover.
and their mouths speak with arrogance.
11 They have tracked me down, they now surround me,
with eyes alert, to throw me to the ground.
12 They are like a lion hungry for prey,
like a fierce lion crouching in cover.
13 Rise up, LORD, confront them, bring them down;
with your sword rescue me from the wicked.
14 By your hand save me from such people, LORD,
from those of this world whose reward is in this life.
May what you have stored up for the wicked fill their bellies;
may their children gorge themselves on it,
and may there be leftovers for their little ones.
with your sword rescue me from the wicked.
14 By your hand save me from such people, LORD,
from those of this world whose reward is in this life.
May what you have stored up for the wicked fill their bellies;
may their children gorge themselves on it,
and may there be leftovers for their little ones.
15 As for me, I will be vindicated and will see your face;
when I awake, I will be satisfied with seeing your likeness.
when I awake, I will be satisfied with seeing your likeness.
"Let my vindication come from you, may your eyes see what is right" (v.2)
Sometimes, I feel like I just need to repeat this verse over and over in my head until I truly understand it. Especially pertaining to my anxiety about college apps, it needs to rest in my GUT that my identity does not lie in my college application or the quality of school that I go to, but rather in God. Whichever college I end up in, even if it's not one that I would have preferred, is ultimately through God's grace and plan.
"As for me, I will be vindicated when I see your face; when I awake, I will be satisfied with seeing your likeness" (V.15)
ACT OF LOVE: Today, we had a study period in Anatomy so I spent part of that period helping my friend with Pre-calculus! I tried my best to explain the concepts and reasoning to her, even though she might not have understood me completely.
***PRAYER REQUEST***
PLEASE pray for peace and faith in God for me. One thing that I've been struggling with alot is anxiety about my future and about colleges. No matter how hard I try, I can't seem to shake my nervousness and anxiety about not getting into a good college or meeting my parent's expectations. I'm really desperate for some peace in God, that He is in control and "works for the good of those who love Him" (Romans 8:28). I know all of these things in my head, but I have a hard time truly believing it in my gut. Especially since my mom overreacts really easily and puts alot of pressure on me about my art portfolio and college app. I have an interview coming up, and I honestly feel more pressured by my mom than by the actual interview itself. I know that she only cares about me and wants the very best, but it's caused me to have alot of anxiety and low self-esteem. More than anything, I just want God to grant me peace throughout the entire process, and to have faith in him. I can't help but compare myself to other extremely successful students in my class, or to my sister, or to basically any really smart and talented person. I was filling out the UCLA Arts Supplement earlier, and at one point I just wanted to stop and cry in a corner. My worrying is unnecessary, but it's something that I am genuinely struggling with. PLEASE pray if you have the time! I need to stop worrying. My identity is not defined by my college application, but by my salvation in Him. AHH.
*Also, major props if you read the entire post. wow.
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