PASSAGE: God Disciplines His Sons
MEMORY VERSE: "Be wise in the way you towards outsiders; make the most of every opportunity" Colossians 4:5
*Note: Today's post is longgg..
NOTES: I know I'm going super out of order, but I think God has been really teaching me Hebrews 12 lately, especially the verses
-"Endure hardship as discipline; God is treating you as sons. For what son is not disciplined by his father? If you are not disciplined (and everyone undergoes discipline), then you are illegitimate children and not true sons. Moreover, we have all had human fathers who disiciplined us and we respected them for it. how much more should be we submit to the Father of our spirits and live! Our fathers disciplined us for a little while as they thought best; but God disciplines us for our good, that we may share in his holiness. No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it. Therefore, strengthen your feeble arms and wea kness." (v.7-12)
This past week has been pretty rough for me. Mainly, we had auditions for the fall play this past week, and I had prayed about the auditions. I knew I did relatively well on my auditions based on the feedback I got, but for some reason, I didn't get a SINGLE callback (callbacks are characters that she wants you to read for so that you have a chance to play their character). If you don't get cast as a character, you are put in the chorus, which is, by far, the very "worst" role to play (ESPECIALLY if you're in the advanced drama class). Let me elaborate. By being in the chorus, you...
-Wear a mask the entire time so people cant even see your FACE
-Talk in unison as one entity so that you are completely unidentifiable
-Don't get to wear a toga =(
-Have very few lines and is a minor role in the play
I've heard some of my friends say that if they got the chorus, they wouldn't even want to be in the play (even though we're forced to). Being in the chorus was the ONE thing that I did not want, especially since there were alot of minor characters with smaller roles that I knew I could play. But lo and behold, I got cast as "Chorus Member #1" on saturday when the list was emailed out.
Initially, I was very frustrated. I didn't understand why I didn't even get the CHANCE to read for another character, when basically everyone else did. I didn't understand why I didn't get a callback when my audition seemed to go so well. I didn't understand why I didn't get cast as anything better, especially since I'm a senior, and I've been involved with the Drama department for 3 years. I didn't understand why other people, who were younger and less experienced, received larger roles than I did.
As I was talking to God about these frustrations, He brought something to mind: If I had gotten a lead or a big role, I know I would have put in 110% and worked super hard for my character. But God wanted to see if I would work for HIM in the same way by putting the same amount of effort forward, even if no one would ever see my face, or know that I was in the play despite all my efforts. Am I working for the Lord, or for men? (Colossians 3:23). God had made me realize the pride and selfish ambition that was in my heart going into these auditions, and He made sure that I learn my lesson the hard way. So today, I studied Hebrews 12 because I do think that God is using this to teach me a valuable lesson.
To be honest, I've been pretty blown away by this, and I think I can say that I'm even excited to be a chorus member now, and to GLORIFY HIM through my attitude & efforts. HALLELUJAH BABY :) I made the commitment to not complain about rehearsals or anything, and to be THANKFUL for my role as Chorus #1(so if you ever catch me complaining, go ahead and rebuke me.....with love&gentleness, though :). God has given me this role, so imma be the BEST CHORUS MEMBER #1 EVER. Im gunna make sure the Chorus puts the ZING in AMAZING. WOOHOO!
*Btw CONGRATS to my friend PATRICIA, who landed the role of Jocasta!
ACT OF LOVE: Offered to give my friend a ride to the Servant Team meeting in the morning :)
Also, met someone new--someone named Daniel, who is a 5th year at UCLA. It was his first time at BOL in quite a while!
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